Used

Seriously... i feel like i'm some kind of item... being used and then left to rot... only when there's a need will i be making 'an appearance'... at other times... i'm just the forgotten one... being left in my own world... with no one i can cling onto... i dun mind helping... well, i love to help ppl... but please dun treat me like what i said above... need me and look upon me only when you are having trouble... on the other hand, cut me out of your life when you live happily through it...

well... a perfect example would be birthdays... its an annually affair... some remember it, some dun... some gave blessings, some forget to or remember only upon mentioning... some remember others' and called u along, but have they ever thought of your birthday and call others out to celebrate together? hmmm... i dun mind ppl forgetting mine, and i also dun mind going out to celebrate others together, but the feeling of used and neglection sort of lingers around and slowly magnified... so i can't be overlooked... there's always a thousand and one reasons for explanation so i shall not argue abt it... i'll not put it to heart as i wanna stay happy... but to stay happy i dun have sole and full control over myself...

i know myself well of what i need, but my friends may think otherwise and their thoughts are surely different from mine... so i can understand... 越长大越孤单, i think these words rightly portray my feeling now... i seriously need someone who understand, cares and feel for me... i'm not who i'm now, nor am i who i wanna be now... but i can definitely go better than where i'm now... i can and i will... just give me the support i need and deserved...