busy

busy... tat's the word everyone is using nowadays... coz exam is looming on everyone...

boring... tat's the word some of us are using these days... coz studying for exam isn't as attractive...

there are alot of things i wanna grumble abt... but i dun wish to say it out... its the usual stuffs... how i wish we are back in the days of sec sch... or early jc... haiz... but time flies... we can't always look back, so we have to stick our head forward and go thru its... be it together or alone...(more of the latter)

i think there's a time when we need to take a break...
from the same grp of frens...
from work
from study
from play
from loneliness
from every little details

i find that i hardly fit into any grp of my frens... maybe they are already a close clique among themselves.. so i dun really fit it prefectly... maybe my thinking its different from theirs.. its not my character to fit into their range of topics... i dun mind sharing cost if everyone is eating abt the same value, but i dun like ppl give the face if i'm paying for my own share... wat's wrong with it? i pay wat i eat is there anything wrong? its unfair for me to eat the cheaper of the food and pay for ur share as well...

moreover... u all can remember everyone's birthday in the clique and celebrate for them without fail... but when it comes to mi, which of u guys remember? didn't even ask i presume... celebrate, eat buffet, share cost for treating... spending and spending... but i sometimes feel i'm not enjoying wat i spent on...

its already hard for me to fall in love... its even harder for me to forget a love... even though it nvr passes the line of relationship... so u can expect me to hang on to every and any little hope for me to love again... but its not happening... it nvr does... some still doesn't know i like them before... so know, but divert them to friendship and avoided them... i dun blame anyone but myself... i've nvr spend alot of effort in chasing one which i'm quite ashamed of... haiz...

yup.... i know... gals seeing this will not come to like a guy like me... which is fine with me, coz if they judge me by entries on blog, means they are shallow as well.. hehe... no offence... but i've far more depth than u r able to see...

think this blog gonna close soon ba... running out of things to complain... haha...

re-listening to selected Linkin park songs... heal my soul... let me shout out loud from within and ease my sorrow... wondering when they are coming again for a concert... do hope to attend them for once...