I dun fit

well... sometimes reading other ppl's blog make u feel minor... insignificant... it makes me feel... how am i supposed to fit into their lives..? as a friend that is... they circle of frens seems to fill with so much fun and happiness... but i'm all alone by myself... so wat if i state out my situation? no one really bothers... even if they care... it always seem to end at the point of saying out... it seldom lead to any action taken... for always, there's thousand and one reasons why this, why that... how do u suppose i feel? maybe i'm not enough a fren for u... maybe what i thought of u doesn't have an equal meaning on u to mi... maybe i nvr tried enough... maybe i'll nvr be there... maybe, juz maybe, the slightest thought in that little corner of ur mind resisted the temptation to call mi for whatever reasons that u thought i have... i seldom reject... but always get rejected... that's my life... and i dun see any much changes in it... maybe its getting worse... now i'm seriously thinking... thinking that one day... i would just throw away everything, but refuse to even start anew... maybe doing this i'll feel better...

sometimes i dun even know why i get angry that such stuffs... for what reasons? who am i to be angry? why should i do so much but end up with nothing? maybe that's where all my motivations are lost to... hehe... smile :)

have been restraining my self ever since to blog such stuffs... but sometimes when u see too much.. held too much... you need to release it all out just to have an empty mind to start with... well... its empty now... sometimes when i starts to think too negative or something i keep grubbling... well... i'll just close and mind, stop my thoughts and tat's it... its over...

HAPPY ORD WEEK to ME!!! half more day of 'work' and i'm free to collect my IC on friday...! yeaH!