Staying Strong . Together

Come this saturday
Friends will gather
Heavy on hearts

Memories flashing back
Tears will flow

Leaving out all the rest
We'll always remember
for who you are
the smile you always wear
and how much you meant to us

So long my friend
May peace be with you

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To my friends,

Facing such times
the more we must stand together
support one another
don't be afraid to face problems
cause you won't be alone
we will be close, we will be willing
if you don't mind, we will face them together

Take good care all my friends

Life's pretty much smooth sailing...

attached life is not easy... but i'm not one who's going to back down upon facing difficulties... guess its part of life tat everyone must go through... i've made a promise to myself that i'll ensure my 1st love to be my only one... so far so good... she's been a caring person... making an effort to decorate a small birthday cake for me... though she had to leave and go back hometown one day before my birthday day... all i wanna say is i love u my sweety... u will be back tml le...

Our 1st 7 meet ups & dates

Our 1st meet up 16/7/08
after chatting for a few days... i suddenly suggested to meet her up for dinner after her work at bt timah... i was late by alot... coz it was a sudden decision... and i had to rush there... not knowing which bus to take and end up taking alot of time waiting for bus to come... by then it was already 9pm... we chose chicken rice and order a dish of vege.. the vege was too salty though.. the chicken still ok... i send her to her bus stop and waited for her bus to come... after tat i walked to my bus stop and got home...

Our 2nd Meet Up 17/7/08
the next day was actually supposed to be our 1st meet up... its her off day.. while i need to go TTSH for my medical appt. too... we meet up at bugis as she wanted to do some shopping over there... we went over to bugis junction food court and ate korean food... after tat we went back to bugis for more window shopping... after tat we went over to The Cathay to collect our movie ticket to Hancock... went to eat Ben and Jerry before the movie... after the movie we walked back to orchard Taka before take a bus ride home, which i sent her...

Our 3rd Meet Up 19/7/08
meet her up after work and went over to clarke quey to have our dinner... well... we missed a stop and have to walked from china town to The Central... btw... we wore the same colour shirt... actually i wanted to wear same as her de... hehe... we walked abt the area... still to decide wat we wanna eat... in the end... the rain and the crowded indo seafood restaruant made us pick manhattan as our dinner... she paid for it... so sweet of her... well.. she say wanna treat mi back as i did most of the paying back on thurs... after our sumptuous dinner of seafood and lobster platter... we walked alittle of the area before rushing to send her back home...
as there was no direct bus available... we transferred bus at taka there...

Our 4th Meet up & our 1st DATE 23/7/08
she was supposed to take her basic theory test, but some mixed up made her having to re-book the test date again... hence she went over to west mall to wait for mi as i rushed over from my house... wore my new vest bought on our 2nd meet up... we went over to vivo city to catch Red Cliff... tat's when i requested to hold her hands... its the 1st time i actually hold a gal's hand, if u believe me... we actually chatted abt it over sms for the past few days...
we walked abt... and ate at Carls Jr before the movie... after the movie... we continued to do somemore window shopping and head over to the roof for some sea breeze and chit chat... another 1st happened... go on and guess... lots of talking done... but soon i had to send her back... due to her restrictions... took the train to douby ghuat and transfer to bus...

Our 2nd Date... 26/7/08
well not much of a date then... coz i asked her our to watch movies with my sec sch frens... its the 1st time i bring her to meet my frens.... went home after work, rested for a while before meeting her up and headed down to orchard Cineleisure... as we were rushing to have our dinner before the movie begins in half an hrs time... or so wat we thought... coz the guys end up reaching the cinema later than us... we bought a foot long of SUBway and ate it outside the sofa area of the cinema... you one bite, i one bite... how more sweet can it be...? hehe... after the movie we parted with my frens abt came upon the neoprint shop... she was suggesting to take neoprints a few days back.. so i suggested we go in and take it... and we did.... thus our 1st kiss on print... hehe... all sweet and blissful... sent her home after tat...

Our 3rd Date 30/7/08
I had a bad headache for the past week... went to see the doc the previous day... was feeling much better... we met at lot 1 to have a light breakfast at Mac.... went over to AMK HUb area to sing K... was looking for its new and 2nd outlet nearby, but find in vain... so went to the older one but it was still nt tat bad... weekday crowd are much lesser... sang we did... end off our session with a couple of love songs duet... after tat we catch the movie HELLBOY at AMK Hub... thereafter riding a bus to SUNTEC to see SG Garden Festival... definitely worth the money with the plants being showcased... after tat we went to marina to have our dinner at food court and ate Jap food... headed to 7-11 to buy some bread for my family and drinks for ourself... went to Esplanade roof top... cuddling and chatting... and the 1st time i saw her cry... dun cry anymore sweety... i won't make u cry again... if u ever do cry... pls cry because u are over-joyed... after tat we went to merlion for her to take some pics... after tat sent her home again....

Our 4th Date(7th meet up) 2/8/08
just came back from our 4th date... its the 11th day we've been together as a couple... everything is still as sweet...meet her up after work... saw her work place for the 1st time.... 1st time i arrived early as well... most of the time i'm always late.. u know... travelling takes time... today is the most time we spent waiting for bus to arrive... from 184 to 197 to 14 to 77... we went over to queensway for me to get a new pair of street soccer boots... mine is quite taken apart after last week's game... especially the left pair of the boot... i've been trying to glue it back together since a few mths back but its time to get a new one... the gal made her pick... i tryed it on... its quite comfortable.. and i bought it then.... eat decided to eat the Katong Laksa there, an impatient couple kept complaining abt the lack of space after being ask to share the small table at the eating place... after tat we travel to Far East for her shopping... she bought 2 dresses, a pair of shoes and some accessories... then we walked abt from wheelock to wisma to cine then send her home... today was the latest i've sent her home... i almost didn't made it to my last available bus at her home area...

this is my brief diary of our meet up and dates... hopeful of many more sweet memories to come... may this, once sad and gloomy blog, turn into a sweet and blissful memory holding ground for the both of us...

thanks gal... I LOVE YOU...

I'm Finally attached...!

its a moment to celebrate... an event to be joyous abt... coz after 22 yrs of waiting and searching... i've finally found someone i can give my love to... and someone who is willing to love mi in return... and we both believe that we have found a life partner... but we still need time to settle down... tat we both agree on... coz all things happened too quickly... too fast... we are still sweetly in love with each other... and hopefully continue to remain this way till old...

Dear michelle,

i hope that i've really found the one, likewise you the same... i dun wish nor do i wanna give u promises.. coz promises can be broken... but i'll do my best to love u each and every day to come... though we may not see each other everyday... we both know we missed each other much and yearn to meet up and be together at all times... but i think being aparts helps to strengthen our bond and love more... we need to trust each other to keep on moving forward...

this post is for u... and the subsequent posts will be written to take down all our moments...

torture...

why are you still torturing me this way...

i clearly don't deserve this kind of treatment...

the look on ur face, the signs from your body language is shows nothing further from the truth...

if you think that what i'm saying is false, i seriously think that is should be proven...

busy

busy... tat's the word everyone is using nowadays... coz exam is looming on everyone...

boring... tat's the word some of us are using these days... coz studying for exam isn't as attractive...

there are alot of things i wanna grumble abt... but i dun wish to say it out... its the usual stuffs... how i wish we are back in the days of sec sch... or early jc... haiz... but time flies... we can't always look back, so we have to stick our head forward and go thru its... be it together or alone...(more of the latter)

i think there's a time when we need to take a break...
from the same grp of frens...
from work
from study
from play
from loneliness
from every little details

i find that i hardly fit into any grp of my frens... maybe they are already a close clique among themselves.. so i dun really fit it prefectly... maybe my thinking its different from theirs.. its not my character to fit into their range of topics... i dun mind sharing cost if everyone is eating abt the same value, but i dun like ppl give the face if i'm paying for my own share... wat's wrong with it? i pay wat i eat is there anything wrong? its unfair for me to eat the cheaper of the food and pay for ur share as well...

moreover... u all can remember everyone's birthday in the clique and celebrate for them without fail... but when it comes to mi, which of u guys remember? didn't even ask i presume... celebrate, eat buffet, share cost for treating... spending and spending... but i sometimes feel i'm not enjoying wat i spent on...

its already hard for me to fall in love... its even harder for me to forget a love... even though it nvr passes the line of relationship... so u can expect me to hang on to every and any little hope for me to love again... but its not happening... it nvr does... some still doesn't know i like them before... so know, but divert them to friendship and avoided them... i dun blame anyone but myself... i've nvr spend alot of effort in chasing one which i'm quite ashamed of... haiz...

yup.... i know... gals seeing this will not come to like a guy like me... which is fine with me, coz if they judge me by entries on blog, means they are shallow as well.. hehe... no offence... but i've far more depth than u r able to see...

think this blog gonna close soon ba... running out of things to complain... haha...

re-listening to selected Linkin park songs... heal my soul... let me shout out loud from within and ease my sorrow... wondering when they are coming again for a concert... do hope to attend them for once...

Used

Seriously... i feel like i'm some kind of item... being used and then left to rot... only when there's a need will i be making 'an appearance'... at other times... i'm just the forgotten one... being left in my own world... with no one i can cling onto... i dun mind helping... well, i love to help ppl... but please dun treat me like what i said above... need me and look upon me only when you are having trouble... on the other hand, cut me out of your life when you live happily through it...

well... a perfect example would be birthdays... its an annually affair... some remember it, some dun... some gave blessings, some forget to or remember only upon mentioning... some remember others' and called u along, but have they ever thought of your birthday and call others out to celebrate together? hmmm... i dun mind ppl forgetting mine, and i also dun mind going out to celebrate others together, but the feeling of used and neglection sort of lingers around and slowly magnified... so i can't be overlooked... there's always a thousand and one reasons for explanation so i shall not argue abt it... i'll not put it to heart as i wanna stay happy... but to stay happy i dun have sole and full control over myself...

i know myself well of what i need, but my friends may think otherwise and their thoughts are surely different from mine... so i can understand... 越长大越孤单, i think these words rightly portray my feeling now... i seriously need someone who understand, cares and feel for me... i'm not who i'm now, nor am i who i wanna be now... but i can definitely go better than where i'm now... i can and i will... just give me the support i need and deserved...