坚持 与 放弃

坚持，会有结果吗?
放弃，会带来新的机会吗?

不断尝试不是坏事，但坚持是一种美德。
放弃是代表没有毅力，还是自己不相信奇迹?

恒心，毅力我有。我也不是轻易放弃的那种人。
现在只能等奇迹出现吗?

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终于把礼物送给她了。

这是第二次买女性的礼物给女生，感觉真痛苦。为何?
因为找的过程很辛苦，必经我不是女生嘛。
找得用心，但收礼物的人在那谢谢背后，是怎样的心情?

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公主小妹 会在我明年的生日播出。但。。。我生日当天会有特别的奇遇吗?

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这是我唯一能诉苦的地方了

为何我每个简单的想法，别人都可以恶意的扭曲呢?

我的想法是事实，但却被你们大作文章。这谁会开心?

我也是人，也有感受，也有想法。

你们说的，骂的，批评的。好的我会接受，没建设性的当然不理。

请不要在再说我不开心了。

给你们这样一直说，那里还会开心下去?


每次想谈恋爱，都碰钉子，喝闭门羹。
难道我真的没有爱人的权力吗?

现在连简单的诉苦都能让人炒作话题，我还能怎样?

说自己是朋友，再关心。
我却感觉不到你到底帮了些什么。
嘴巴一直说，但没任何行动?

不想再说了，反正也改变不了什么。

爱。心

一旦爱上了，就不是作假。
你可以骂我花心，也可以赞我专情。
我承认我喜欢过好几个女生，但每个都是在不同时段。这算正常，普通吗?
每个时段都只爱着一人，但前几段都没有勇气告白。
就算隐隐约约让她们发觉了，结果就只有‘伤心’这两个字。
但是告白了又能怎样? 她们往往都不理不睬，装聋作哑。
没有任何的回应，叫我束手无策。
从没谈过恋爱得我，该如何是好呢?

每次爱上了，挣扎过，痛苦了几月几年。
收拾悲伤的心情，尝试再去爱一个人。
但必经，这是我单方面的意愿。
我不强求，但永远的奢望这，命运会给一个好的安排。
等着等着，时间依然在摧残着我的心。
但我爱的人，没有一个能说她也爱着我。
问题出在哪呢?
是一开始过于的明显，导致她人的反感。
还是总是爱上了不应该爱的人。
真心换绝情? 真情换伤心? 有谁知?

不管任何事，一旦超越了限度，就会面临负效应。
心如果被伤了无数次，你能确保它不会有阴影吗?
如果心已死了，就无法再点燃熊熊烈火了。
但为了真心爱的人，就算伤心，也希望她能找到永远爱护她的人。

seriously, i not good at shopping...

as the title suggest... i'm really bad at shopping... i can't seem to make up my mind on things especially if time is putting pressure on mi... same applies to deciding wat to eat ba... if u ask u abt electronics i'm still fine with it... but it comes to clothes and gifts... its a real headache...my fashion sense is zero ba... if i can't even buy my other clothes easily... pls dun try to ask mi for suggestion or opinion ba... hehe... i think many of my frens can be witness ba... when most of them are loaded with rewards on both hands... i'm often empty handed... more so when they are more 'loaded' than mi financially to get things of more class(branded goods)...

buying gift for someone u like and buying for ur other half, which is harder?

both need to be special when finding especially for ur other half ba...

price factor for both doesn't need to be too expensive, its the sincerity that's important... anyway a gift is all in the heart...

i really think that for mi, i need help in getting into a relationship... not juz help from 3rd party... but fren that person i'm into as well...

having patience in love is of no use if determination is in the way... the determination of not opening the gates of her heart... if she doesn't wan to open up to you, how long can u persist on such love... persistance will bring abt annoyance, thus hate comes in... so i dun wan it to happen... but wat can i do...? suffer in silence?

i dun fall into love easily... i fall because of the 'right feeling'... but tat feeling mostly happen one sided-ly... the most important thing is that they nvr answer my question... i love you, is that the same for u? if not pls do tell mi... i dun wan silence as answers... at least give mi a clear answer... say u will nvr fall in love with mi... or at least give mi a chance to work on... or juz a straight no... silence is really a killer to mi... let mi wait in suffering... is that really fair...?

i not blaming anyone.... everytime i confess... or the info leaks out... or being detected by that person... things always turn for the worse? can anyone explain why does it happen? if u need time i can give u, if u dun wan anything between us, u can say too... i'm not going to force anything to happen... juz dun put our friendship in jeopardy but ignoring mi all of a sudden... if u dun wan mi to bother u, juz say it... i'll give u my blessings... or if u managed to get attached...

there's no wrong in loving someone, so why do one side always end up suffering...?

ppl say have confidence in urself... or dun look down on ur self... or dun dwell on ur past bad experience...

its not that i dun have confidence in myself... i know wat a person i am... wat's my 'pros and cons'... i dare to try... but i also need some signs/clues to carry on... its nvr a one way battle...

i'm really tired... everytime i try... i end up getting hurt badly each time... the more i try, the harder i fall... but i nvr give up in loving that person... i'll only let go if she gets attached and stay happy... thats the initial thing i wanted to give to anyone i like... to give her happiness... if i can't be the one, pls make sure u have someone who can...

if anyone of my frens see this post... i think i'm gonna get killed... or i'll murder myself.... waahaha...

Friends...

Friends... what is its definition?

A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.

what's your definition for it then?

a friend?
- someone whom seeks your help when they are in trouble, but seldom call you up in normal times?
- someone whom take his own sweet time to reply your messages unless you are a girl(refers to guys mostly)
- someone whom likes to complain abt others but not knowing he also commits his own complains? hehe

a chat with leong...

was on our way to hq's house to watch lfc vs man u match... then was chatting...

i was saying that maybe it's my personality that brought mi to where i am... but he say he was like mi last time also... quiet... but he's not tat now is he..? haha...

i know its all abt myself... but who likes to be quiet and all alone... who doesn't like to hang out with frens every now and then... who wants to be like mi stuck at home most of the time... facing the com yet dunno what to do... read books? not really my interest...

but i feel that sometimes i juz need a little help from frens... to be the bridge of things... middleman of sort... it will definitely be of greater help than mi all alone facing my problems... well... i dun really have much problems... i know everyone have to be contented with wat he's been given or born with... so i dun ask for anything much....

having a girlfriend or not is not a big deal, some may say... well... i can't really comment much... nvr experience any... but i sometimes do hope that i have a close fren that can help mi out a little... i would definitely owe a life time to him/her if that relationship develop well... its not like i can't live without love, but who wouldn't wan to have someone by their side...?

hmmm... i think i may not be suitable for a relationship yet ba? but who doesn't learn from the beginning...?

my first post... not...

think i got to explain the reason for choosing this blog address name...

jef-fiti...

jef... as in my name... i started out with JEFF, double 'F'... but slowly... i begin to like my name with only one letter 'F'... its still the same pronouncation but more special... alot of ppl think that my name is in short for jeffery, which is not true... at least when ppl call mi i wish they call by jeff and not jeffery, jess(old ppl tend to say out unclearly).... blah blah... although its not registered in my IC or given by my parents... i like this name... based on 2 reasons.... jeff chang and jef united...

jef-fiti... as a whole the word comes from 'Graffiti'...

- Graffiti and graffito are from the Italian word graffiato ("scratched").
- Historically, the term graffiti referred to the inscriptions, figure drawings, etc., found on the walls of ancient sepulchers or ruins, as in the Catacombs of Rome or at Pompeii. Usage of the word has evolved to include any graphics applied to surfaces in a manner that constitutes vandalism.

sort of mean Graffiti in my heart... scratches, marks, imprints, memories by others and myself in my heart...

well that's abt all for my 1st post or intro... i not sure who will come across this blog... hopefully not strangers and spammers...! do not comment, if u dunno mi, abt my posts...

well... this blog will be mixed in chinese and english... think chinese will be of majority as i can use the words better to express myself and my thoughts...